Daintty’s Diary

I keep on wondering

why this feeling for you wont die

I want to forget you, yes i tried!

But memories keep on hunting me in my heart

And in my mind

I tried to be happy with all my friends around me

Pretending your not beside me

But the truth will always prevail that now

Being with you cannot be real

Every where i go my eyes always searching for you

I want to see you even if your with somebody new

I hpe i could talk to you like we always do

And hope i could talk to ou like we always do

And i hope i could do those weet things as

Before like the way i do.

I really don’t know why hatred was never felt

After your pretending and no one repleace you

in my heart for it will alway, be with you…

How i wish that you could see

Just how much you mean to me

You were special part of my past

That i lost so fast

You came inot my life without a warning

And when you left me, i was hurting

Oh God, i wish i could turn back time

So that i could still make you mine

I gave my heart and soul to you

But i still failed, i have lost

And eventhough we fell apart

You’ll be forever in my heart

Beside you is where i wish to be

always together, just you and me

You promise that you would never leave me

But now it’s like a catastrophe

I still grieve and feel the pain each night

Whoever would’ve thought that i still might?

Whitout you here besude me

I always feel so damn weary

I keep on missing you

And all the things that we used to do

Don’t you know you’re killing me softly?

Living without you here beside me

How will i ever forget you?

And learned to stop loving you?

The problem is i never would

Because i think i never could

Right now, you’re still everything to me.

Oh God, now i want it to be

The two of us again together

As you promised, that you will leave me again.

We’ve been together for more than a year

Shared so much laughter and tears

But with a snap of my fingers, youre gone

Don’t know whose to blame, what have i done?

How it feel like my worlds going to die

I’m left here and all i can do is cry

Since i can never teach myself to hate you

How i wish you feel the same way too

Things change and now im free

But still, i feel incomplete

Why can’t i be at ease?

Now that i can do whatever i please

You’ve certainly left a mark in me

For you made me see what life really is

And i’d be a fool to forget you

Cause you’re still the one i hold dear and true.

I have lost you before

And i was deeply hurt

You said you were sorry

So in your arms i’ve returned

Here i go again,

Feel the same old feeling

Believing the words you said

And keeping the love within me

I gave you everything that i could

Only to find out that i was a fool

Being entranced with the world you made

Never thought it was a mistake.

Finally, i have come to my senses

I picked up what i shattered into pieces

Though the sorrow will always be with me

I’d keep in mind that i have to be firm.

Finding myself whole again

Is the next best thing that turned out

I learned to love myself above you

Best of all, i know i’d survive even without you.